From Purgatory to Peace
August has brought a fierce heat and required us to surrender to the fires of transmutation on multiple levels. We fear fire and often mourn what it reclaims, but we forget fire is an alchemical agent. What survives it is transformed, refined, and stronger; what succumbs to it makes space for something new to blossom. Fire is part of life and creation. We contain sparks within us, affording us creational agency, passion, and excitement. We are no stranger to life’s transformational tools, though we often don’t recognize them as such when we are in their intensity.
When we observe nature, we become aware of the cycles, patterns, and rhythms that facilitate and guide all life. We are part of them, guided by them, and facilitators of them in our own way. As much as we think we have control when we advance ourselves in some area, we are at times reminded of our subservient position to the grander forces and designs at play.
The manifestations of these forces can seem destructive, punitive, and cruel to those living in a lower frequency bandwidth of perception. From that view, loss is unjust and forever. Life is cut short and unfinished mistakenly. People seem victims of life, lucky or unlucky in their draw at birth. Death is menacing and predatory. Some belief systems preach death’s dark intentions as an avoidable fate mitigated only by an exclusive set of rules or submission to a deity. Fear is a currency that is used to drive life in subjugation, and eternity is held as an unimaginable possibility and option for a select few.
As consciousness rises into the higher bandwidth of assured eternal origin and inevitability, however, fear simply becomes an illusory block to divine flow and potential. Fear is a misunderstanding or misperception, in the way of a higher truth. Fear productively, becomes the direct path to access transformation. Fear does not stop action or cause retraction, rather it warrants investigation and illumination. Fear that is fully recognized and processed, is then easily dismissed, or dissipated when encountered again in another person or situation.
We are shedding many old layers of experience, some inherited and not originating with us in this lifetime. To rise, we must see where we hold old energies, imbalances, and entanglements in lower realms of experience, relationship, and belief. They are blocks and limits to expansion. Life exists in perpetual motion; we are in phases of expansion and contraction, birth and death, ongoing and often simultaneously. Saying yes to life is saying yes to death and its various forms and agents.
August called forth a culmination of karmic residue and responsibility. We have increasingly been guided by death’s direction and new offerings, and what we refuse to acknowledge is aflame in our awareness or exploding in our reality. Old ways, comforts, and roles won’t get us through. Some are falling away completely and won’t be available anymore. If we are perceptive, this has been coming for a long time. If we are honest, we are relieved with some closures, and terrified with others. Have we ever considered who a butterfly is inside the chrysalis, as we marvel after at the glory of its wings?
I experienced my karmic climax over the course of moving my youngest daughter to college. I of course knew it was impending for quite some time and had waves of emotion surface leading up to the event, but the enactment itself brought additional ancestral accounts forward that were seeking acknowledgement and liberation. It can be quite a challenge to stay present in the moment while a heavy-laden toll claims its due. It is no different when the toll doesn’t originate with you. The energies can feel like your emotions, your thoughts, your feelings, your fears, your projections, your grief. You have most likely engaged in dramas with them in your own life before unknowingly, and felt victimized by their perceived threats, while projecting their enemies in your relations.
For me, it was unburdening the plight of the women in my lineages; I was filled with feeling and knowing so many dreams unfulfilled, anger, resentment, disempowerment, perceived failure or weakness, and rage. I felt an accumulation of suppressed grief and unspoken desperation. I felt an immense fear of losing worth and value as I aged. I was overcome with a loss of identity and purpose. It was disorienting at times, so I spent my mornings in meditation and spoke the Hawaiian prayer for forgiveness through my ancestral lines. I walked the earth with love, connection, and intention. I was gratefully held for the transition and present for my daughter’s initiation into her new chapter.
I knew what I was stepping into when we first entered our cabin on the mountain. I was immediately greeted by a newly emerged locust on the porch. The metamorphosis phase of the locust informed me of the state I was in and its intended outcome. I felt the vulnerability and rawness of one that had shed its former skin. I was told the transformation was already in place and reminded of my wings. I then got to see the locust take its first flight. I kept the shell for my prayers and was guided to release the old skin on the last day in honor of what was experienced but is no more. As I went to go, there was another empty shell in gravel at my feet. I was told to acknowledge my husband’s transformation too, and to allow him to be new. The women in me had so much mistrust, anger, resentment, and fear of the power and position of men. They lived so many toxic relationships and imbalances. Some of the women grew cold and saw the men as dangerous fire. The men carried their own burdens in the mix, but emotional connections and understanding between the sexes were not well-trodden in my line. Men were often a source of income, but also conflict between family and friends. I had carried these attitudes forth early on in my marriage. They were settings I didn’t know to question, relationships I grew up seeing, dynamics I played out with my husband, and assignations I placed on him often.
The most important thing to recognize while being a vehicle for a collective’s passage of the past, is to know your ability to change it for yourself. You are supported by many generations in doing so. Sometimes unresolved voices simply want to be acknowledged, sometimes their pain and stories felt and understood, sometimes gifts and wisdom want to be passed down, but always the bearers of the karmic weight want to be set free. Old vows, traumas, grudges, and burdens have ways of being passed on down the line and hardwired into various manifestations of mental, emotional, and physical inheritance. Many generations felt helpless in their lot. Many didn’t know they had the power to change familial or societal traditions and expectations. For most, these frameworks of experience were prisons and perspectives that they were obligated to carry forth out of honor in sacrifice to the greater good of their people. Some families were entrained to certain behaviors and beliefs through religious influence, others through economic and social status. The chains of our past shape our possibilities from the inside out, until we know we have personal agency, and our kin on the other side celebrating our ingenuity and innovation. We are not doomed to repeat patterns; we are often brought to the energies intentionally to create new outcomes.
In my most recent prayer gathering, I invited my ancestors for communion. They gently reminded me that I am also here to enjoy the wisdom and fruits of their labor. I had focused so much on the task of clearing and integrating traumatic energy, that I forgot about the gifts and treasures available. We can call on them to offer their strength and guidance. No matter how imperfect or unapproachable they seemed in their human form, there is the spiritual nature of our kinfolk that holds understanding and insight beyond their capacity in the physical world. As I marveled at what should have been obvious to me, they had an offering.
A young male stepped forward that appeared to be a hunter or warrior type. He was shirtless and wore a lion’s headdress. He introduced himself as more of an adventurer than a fighter, although he fought hard to find his way. He gifted me with the spirit of assertion and exploration. He had left home and all he knew to cross an ocean to a completely unknown land. He knew he had to make his own way, and he learned new languages and manners to get through. He assimilated to a certain point, but he maintained his authenticity and belief in his greatness. He held his love for his family and saw his pursuits as extensions of its love and honor. He reminded me that this is part of me, and that it existed in both sides of my family. He said although the roles were slightly different, both men and women blazed this trail. He acknowledged the new territory we were in on earth now, but assured me I had what I needed to succeed. I felt the energetic presence of the gift inside and was deeply grateful for his experience and the exchange. I am now seeing every day as a new adventure. We are in unprecedented times and evolutionary changes. It is beyond important to stay grounded, to know our roots and depth, and to hold our value and vision for the sake of all life.
All of life on earth is our family. There are lives we spent as trees, animals, and otherworldly beings. Our ancestry is vast and full of magic and medicine. So many various life forms have shown up in response to my prayers and offerings to the earth during this transition. Love is the unifying ingredient. WE are not strangers to each other or life. When we are drawn to things, even those that are seemingly different or difficult, we are seeking recognition and reconnection for a purpose. Some things that show up are outside of a belief system or familiar face, but they are known to us in our hearts.
I was recently visited by a Lakota legend named White Buffalo Calf Woman while I was in intense pain and grief. As I opened my prayer ritual and circle, she was there waiting. She came to me and placed her hand on my chest. I was immediately overcome by a force of tranquility. She told me that the stillness and peace that I felt was the true nature of reality. She assured me that all of the surface disturbances and complexities in emotion, division, and story, are not real. We are experiencing and shedding many imprints of emotion and perception that are distortions of truth, and that it is important to surrender all of them to what’s real. She said that the world needs those that are ready to embody this peace. The world needs examples and demonstrations of this now. She encouraged me to make time for truth and peace in my day. This is not something I get from outside me. We are encouraged to seek our truth, peace, and stillness inside. It is from this place that we will live, share, create, build, and birth the new earth. It is from this place we will know we are love and stop looking outside for validation or completion. We are already the love that we seek. We are already our purpose and our success. We are already that which we seek in the outer world. We are learning to master ourselves to receive in the outer world that which we activate from inside.
To access and embody more of the peace we are, we are detoxing the denser karmic distortions and residue we have accrued over many lifetimes and experiences. When we understand what’s happening, we can give ourselves the space and time to prioritize this process, without projecting fear or danger into our current circumstances. Our bodies are releasing and mutating ongoing. We can offer support to our bodies by attending to what they require as needed. Sometimes they require changes in nourishment, rest, and activity. Exercise and movement are good ways to shift energy in the body when we don’t have a healing modality or practice. Writing, singing, and speaking help with shifting stories and intentions. If you haven’t tried speaking the release or claim of something for yourself, try it. Prayer is communication with your spirit. Consider that your body and voice are instruments of expression and creation for the you existing beyond form.
We are closing out August with a full blue supermoon in Pisces, while 6 planets are retrograde. What do you need to see in yourself and your current circumstances that need upgrades? What do you need to let go? Are you carrying forth old stories, beliefs, emotions, projections, defenses, prejudices, conflicts, imbalances, relations, or distortions that prevent you from assuming your power and mastery as a divine creator being of love? What disturbs or dishonors your PEACE? Paradigms are shifting, narratives are flipping, and systems are breaking down for you to rebuild and align your life to your authenticity. It’s a process, it’s a blessing; it’s a procedure procured by PEACE itself to secure the golden age on earth imagined and foretold for ages.
Where can you find peace in yourself? Your day? Your relationships? Your communities? Your landscape? Your work? Your mindset? We are bridging this peace in each moment, choice, intention, relationship, action, opportunity, and creation. Take notice of those in your atmosphere that instill peace; discern all that you invite into it that brings its opposition. We are practicing standing in our true nature no matter the circumstance. You are only here response-ably to be you. Choose wisely and treat kindly.
I would love to hear from you about your August experience! Let’s come together to share and bridge, WHAT BRINGS YOU PEACE?
Employing the Freedom to Dream
July came in with a heat and intensity that is lighting new fires of possibility, and burning out reservoirs of unconscious and unnecessary excess. Fire molds and shapes as it decimates and destroys. New identities and realizations are emerging, allowing new life to unfold from any surmounting ashes.
As we contemplated and celebrated freedom in the USA for Independence Day, much was going on in the etheric realms to further address the energetic shackles still unrealized by many in the physical world. The physical is a manifestation of energy that exists in operation on multiple levels, most unseen or perceived by our body’s traditional sensory capabilities. We are taught to disregard other aspects of our consciousness as unreal or imaginary, despite their influence and information that is crucial in contributing to creation.
As we awaken to our multidimensional nature, and learn to utilize our body’s divine technology, we open ourselves to what is affecting us and our world in other realms. We realize there is no separation between realms; it is our awareness and willingness to address our position in these other aspects of consciousness that can help us advance and empower ourselves in new ways. When viewed from an energetic and impersonal standpoint, we become less emotionally entangled in conflict and fear. We know that exploring our own psyche and its symbolism, is key to navigating life’s perpetual changes. Fear in all forms contains a lower frequency to be addressed and transmuted, no matter how big or universally influential it may seem.
Freedom is also a frequency, and it has been fought for, cultivated, wielded, and experienced in peaks of creation that ripple out with purpose. July 4th is one of these peak times, and astrologically its date was not chosen at random. It signifies a stellar gateway when our sun connects to the sun of Sirius, allowing a higher frequency of freedom to be accessed. In preparation for this year’s influx of higher frequencies, much restrictive interference was removed and transmuted in the unconscious realms, allowing more to access their own truth, recognize relevant deceit and disclosure, and allow the emotional processing that follows revelation to assist in arriving at a new perception point. We are living in times of rapid energetic transition, transmutation, and transformation; all on earth are undergoing this together, regardless of where they are in their respective understandings or choices.
Because we are one with life, we need not fear our fate in addressing any darkness we are currently facing. We each carry a facet of creation’s purpose, with a future designed and secured by us in the larger picture at play. We are here to be our true selves and can only know our way from exploring our divine connection and nature within. We are given guidance and direction ongoing. All of our life is our creation, and we can only succeed in mastering ourselves. This is an act of service, naturally contributing to the greater good. When we remember and embody our true nature as LOVE, right action and alignment arise naturally.
Can we trust this to be true in times of conflict? In war? In sorrow?
Can we be present with the changing tides, continuing to anchor in the love eternal inside ourselves?
Can we recognize our emotional triggers as areas of inner significance, instead of projecting blame on an outer source?
We hold the energy of magnetism and manifestation for our circumstances; can we recognize our stories, beliefs, defenses, and behavioral habits that determine our perceptions and results?
Can we own ALL of it, in the way of empowerment and not blame?
Can we bring forth the new we seek in ourselves first, rather than waiting for another to change?
Can we accept that universal love is unconditional?
Can we offer love to ourselves? Our families? Our perceived enemies?
Can we look at our discomforts and judgments as opportunities to explore past experiences that are unhealed or unprocessed?
Can we trust the universal laws of justice and karma to deliver a return in energy to each that is appropriate and beneficial to love’s purpose?
I remember a time I was grappling with justice myself in situations that I felt were cruel and unfair. I mistakenly thought there was an outcome that would stop or justify the pain I was in, or that there was this one thing to set it fair and right. My guiding angels quickly pulled me up, up, up, and higher to a near cosmic view that helped me to see the multitude of situations and perspectives being balanced and meted out. It helped me to surrender my personal desires, limited ideas, and attempts at control, in a willingness to allow a higher outcome for all.
We are at this point in humanity, where our collective limited ideas and outworn systems are being surrendered to the higher operating intelligence of Love that is now more tangibly available. The lower frequency systems rooted in fear, lack, and separation are no match for the higher light templates, codes, and frequencies streaming through the planet. This is a fundamental change that is inescapable, although there is a freedom in choice that determines the alignment and ride. Belief in being a victim of an unjust reality, only assures one’s place and experience in such. Perception and imagination are powerful tools of creation, with effects and results in energy and alignment.
The first week of July was heavenly for me. Spring brought a lot in the way of karmic closure and relationship adjustments that freed more of my energy to feel fulfilled and whole. I was on the ocean, which is a place of restoration and expansion for me. I felt held and in an exchange of abundant life and love, allowing me to receive confirmation on a vision I received two years ago. I connected to a physical place I had encountered in a dream, and was given the opportunity to accept another course in life that will be very different from what I have lived so far.
After soulful reflection, I accepted the invitation knowing I had already done so in other realms of creation. I then said my goodbyes and thanked the land, sea, and its messengers for an amazing time and offer. I came home buzzing with excitement and pregnant with the possibility. I began researching and making contacts along the path of physicalizing the deal. There is a means availing itself, but there is also a timing. I know there are energy clearings and adjustments that I will go through ongoing to ensure I am a match for this new life. There will be things for me to let go, things for me to learn, things for me to take a risk.
This was emphasized in a series of dreams that I had once I returned home. I began dreaming to clear fears, relationship traumas, conflicting beliefs, and expectations of negative outcomes. We hold so much of this in our subconscious, and dreams in part, are ways for us to address these aspects when we are aware of our messaging system and its symbolism. I realized I was being shown the things in the way of me taking my next step so I could release them and choose a new script.
This process further culminated in a dream where I visited the land I connected to, and discovered my friend was there already with her family. She was very pregnant, and in my dreams pregnancy often symbolizes a new creation, opportunity, life, or desire. This friend is typically aggressive in going for what she wants in life, so she was impatient in the dream and wanted to rush her delivery. She called for someone to bring a hooking device to break her water. I was alarmed and tried to talk her out of it, seeing the potential in hurting the baby in the process. I told her that nature has its own timing that is best, but she proceeded any way. She then packed up and got into the ocean to head back home. I warned her again of contamination in the water posing a risk to her baby since they had opened the amniotic sac. She ignored me a second time, wanting it to hurry to fit her schedule. I was left there with a foreboding feeling, knowing I was in the beginning of my gestation period with this vision, and that I would not make the same mistakes.
I awoke understanding the importance of divine timing, and the opportunity available in savoring each step and moment. The journey is the point, each step crucial and meaningful, no matter how mundane or menial. I look back on the last chapter of my life and see how magnificent my changes and accomplishments are to me BECAUSE of the love and labor that built and sustained them over time. In having connected to the future vision, I realize how much in my life and self will change to get there. I accept where I am now and will approach each step with gratitude and presence to the best of my ability. For now I have a dream, and the taste and uplifting hope of its realization. This is where imagination comes into our toolbox, because to go where we haven’t been we must imagine it first. I do so lightly, remembering my limited view from the angels’ tutelage, and I let my feelings of excitement, love, and gratitude fill in the blanks. I received a preview of its attainment in feeling, so it is there I will play to entrain my system to deliver the physical result in kind.
This is also where I go when I envision, embrace, and enliven the new earth. New earth is being bridged and fortified by dreamers and visionaries. This doesn’t mean it is happening only in the realm of ideas and mind, true light bearers are grounded in their bodies and realities, while unafraid to explore and go beyond. So much is being addressed and accomplished in the etheric realms to secure physical changes that don’t seem possible now. To get there, we must play in the higher potentialities, open ourselves to embody the higher frequencies, and believe and act on the information and opportunities we are receiving inside us. We must be willing to hold to ideals and virtues that are uncommon and unappreciated, to act in alignment with them and with our truth even when misunderstood, and to pave new ways of being that go beyond reacting with the same energy and anger of any conflict or problem. The new earth is secured through those willing to see beyond duality, act in the consideration of unity, and forgive the ignorance and brutality. There are resolutions where the energy is elevated and united; blame is separation, stagnation, and disempowerment–period.
As we contemplate freedom on personal and collective levels, let us remember the power of one. One love that is animating all life, and one love inside each, despite the varying external stories and forms. August will bring another Sirian alignment in the 8/8 lion’s gate portal. Let it call up the lion’s courageous heart in you, in service to the earth evolution underway.
What dreams are you contemplating at this time personally? Collectively? Are you aware of the many creational elements active in you when you are trying to build or launch a new idea, creation, or foundation? Are you open to all the dimensional aspects of you that guide you in different ways, channels, and levels of consciousness?
Do you know the healing and creative power of dreams? Can you nurture a seed inside you patiently and considerately while your energies shift and align to offer you steps in the appropriate timing?
The earth needs dreamers and dream weavers to hold the intent, visions, and energies of healing and wholeness for her and all her children. It doesn’t matter where we were before, what is common now, or what others will do. What is possible in your heart? What do you know is true and being called up inside of you? If you can be it and live it, it is attainable and will grow in sustainability the more it is available to others. Do you know the power of a spark? Of a wave? You are a force creating ripples in the ocean, holding the space for the water to rise higher and higher. Whatever your higher vision is for yourself, your home, your family, your community, your country, your world, or your universe, plant it in your heart. Hold it in a spacious area of freedom and faith. Water it regularly with unconditional love and the good feelings that erupt inside when you think of it. Let the warmth of the sun and the light of divine intelligence shine on its face. Nurture it and act as if it so. See its possibility in every encounter and landscape. Know it is alive. It is alive in you, and you keep it alive in every breath, every thought, every choice, and every step you take in getting there….
Wherever you are, it is there. It exists already and is made possible through you.
I would love for you to share any visions that you want acknowledged here. We are learning to get comfortable in asking for what we really want, and allowing ourselves to believe and receive. It takes practice at first to override our old default settings. Keep dreaming and planting! Happy New Moon 🌚💙
Tigress of Integrity
June started with an amazing dream encounter. I was visited by a parade of tigers. All were multi-colored and sparkling with various jewels and fancy adornments. I locked eyes with one for a long time and connected to a goddess energy. She was fierce in her love, secure in herself, and in service to a higher truth that allows her to be unaffected by any chaos she sees in the world. She knows her strength and direct connection to life, and allows herself to be directed by its ebb and flow..
She arrived after a culmination of karmic resolution with the feminine aspect in my life. The month of April brought a situation that allowed me to see the darker dynamics of one side of my family that I had suppressed for the sake of peace. I was still able to navigate things on the surface diplomatically, while addressing the energies inside me that were long ignored. Instead of giving my power away to old childhood pain, or returning the hostility encountered in another, I experienced myself coming from a place of love and detachment. I allowed my feelings, acknowledged them and parented myself privately, while I held a space for others to feel angry, threatened, and unkind. From detachment I was able to literally see the fear patterns as a shroud of darkness preventing them from connecting to the love. I saw the fear narratives and intentions running too. I experienced myself unaffected by them as I chose to be, noticing the directed anger was impersonal and couldn’t penetrate the love I held for myself and the situation. When I felt a slight and my wounded child sprang up in defense, I spoke silently inside offering love and affirmations of worth, and felt a warm energy radiate from my heart lifting me into a higher experience of wholeness. I did not need anything or anyone outside of me to change, to make me feel better. I am capable myself, and I acknowledged their right and ability to choose their own grace and pace.
I have grown more comfortable in being open and present in my encounters, without any need to assess for protection or safety first. It took some time to see my walls and their effect on my experiences. It also took an ongoing commitment and discipline to shift the energy. Trust in others, directly correlates to trust in self. When we experience violations in our early years, it diminishes both.
In the same vein, growth in one area also contributes to progress in the other. As we heal the lower frequency traumas in ourselves, we attract higher outcomes, and see clearly where the lower is present to secure ourselves naturally. Our resolutions are medicine for any similar energetic matches in our reality. We may attract others with similar experiences to be inspired by our success. How we overcome things, is inspiration and a higher frequency for that possibility in others.
May took me to the other side of the family, to wrap up a situation I had been working on for over the last year. In truth, I was always entangled more on this side of the family, so the inner work was often focused there.
One of my children graduated high school, throwing many together in celebration and closure that was a rite of passage that rippled out. I knew I was emerging in one sense; I was opening my home after many changes and time apart. With the rebirth of Easter, my home underwent a complete purge and makeover. I knew it was spiritually supported and symbolic. The inspiration and means came together quickly and easily, and I could see it was reflective of the work and success we accomplished in ourselves and as a family. I also felt a chapter closing in my life that necessitated a clearing of the old, to make space for the new.
The transformation was on all levels. My body started moving old emotional energy, while physically clearing through an intense menstrual cycle, and transmuting childhood energy in a surge of poison ivy that erupted on my arms. I was being challenged to address my inner needs, while hosting and attending gatherings for my daughter and guests. A few came with unhealed hurt and attachments that were directed at me. I observed but remained diplomatic and neutral. I was again able to see the energy and experience myself unaffected by it. Any emotional residue that was left, was accepted and allowed to process in me without any drama or need to involve others. I saw again, the impersonal nature of it, although it was aimed and projected at me. After I addressed any personal wounds from childhood, and feelings of disappointment, I had compassion for all in their process. I relieved myself fully from any perceived obligation or temptation to explain or fix anything with another. The result was LIBERATION, with permission granted for us all to progress at our own pace, with our choices, and our understandings regardless of our status of agreement.
These events helped me to come more into my own. I did not need my worth or changes validated outside of me, I embodied them and experienced them myself. I let myself acknowledge the victories and treasures unapologetically, knowing I could feel good for the good in my life even when others were unable or unwilling to join. Guilt has vacated, along with a pervasive shame that was always there keeping me in my place, awaiting a punishment I imagined I deserved.
April and May brought many opportunities for healing and closure to major themes, challenges, and identities in my story. I was given opportunities to put my choices and ideals into practice and action, both serving as necessary components to shift patterns and frequency in the physical. I had been working toward the freedom and abundance I am currently experiencing now for a long time. These incidents felt like loose ends that still took up some of my energy and space in my psyche, requiring adjustment and redirection. Old limiting views and beliefs about myself and my abilities must expand if I am going to step into something new and enjoy the fruits of my labor.
Despite the challenges, a sense of gratitude and grace was continuously present and felt. New doors also opened, with new relations that reflected the higher qualities I had worked toward. It became apparent to me, that I was simply being encouraged to assess the energy constructs and connections I still had in operation, some unconsciously, to choose what I wanted to continue moving forward with in investment. We are increasingly being shown truth: the truth in our relationships, our thoughts, our choices, and our circumstances on personal and collective scales. If we are not emotionally or mentally invested and connected to the divisive conflicts and dramas stirred up in the social atmosphere, we are not experiencing the entrapment and despair befalling many. We are beings with creative intent and choice, complicit in our own undoing or empowerment. The choice is ours. Are we energizing someone else’s agenda and narrative, or determining and delighting in our own? We are here to fulfill our unique purpose and destiny, which is always in concert with our divine connection. We are divine in nature and need only remember and cultivate this truth in ourselves to find our way.
For me, this required declarations and demonstrations of the energy I wanted to embody and experience. It did not matter what was common or traditional in my reality, what did I want in my heart? If I wanted love, then it was for me to invite it, bring it, BE it. When I was rejected or met with another quality, I could still choose love. I could be compassion, without diminishing or harming myself in any way. Who I am, what I choose, how I act is on me.
Can hatred and misunderstanding be met with love? Yes
Can ignorance and fear elicit compassion? Absolutely
Love is truth, and truth is not tarnished or diminished by misperceptions or distortions. Truth has no agenda, just mechanisms of energy, experience, and creation that stand on their own whether one adheres to them consciously or not. All are still subject to them and any resulting consequences or effects arising from choices made or actions taken that are contrary.
In a lower frequency bandwidth of experience on earth, we were limited and imprisoned by the distortions in thought and density of suppressed emotions. We were manipulated in ways to keep us in a manageable state, only accessing a small portion of our inherent wisdom and potential. We have lived out of balance, suppressing the feminine polarity of creation mentally, emotionally, and physically in ways that are detrimental to our species and planet. What we do to ourselves, is reflected in nature, and vice versa. There is no separation.
The tigress I merged with in my dream, is an energy returning to a position of power here. She is rising in all of us, commanding a return to love, and the right use of life force. She knows how to hold space for a higher vision and focus her energy and intent exclusively there to dream into being what is possible, rather than settling for same or waiting for saved. She speaks in feeling and symbol. She guides from the heart and skills with imagination, creative play, and song. She knows her realm is the space of creation, and she is not limited by the patterns and frameworks that inhabit and serve to enhance it. She is in love and harmony with the masculine aspect, operating in tandem in all creation. She knows through him her manifestations are implemented and protected.
As more awaken to her calling, and balance these forces inside themselves, solutions outside of the current mental constructs will be realized and executed. Barriers of fear will be easily recognized and reclaimed inside, removing their effects externally and allowing acceptance and unity to override the need to be right, or better, or validated from another. A love and trust in life will return. Emotions will be recognized and processed effectively, without projecting and reacting inappropriately toward others. The wounds and fears of our early childhood and past, won’t be allowed to haunt and influence our present foundations.
The Tigress asks us to rise in majesty and maturity. She reminds us that we are one with life and born with a sacred responsibility. We are strong enough to hold the higher truth with love in our hearts, and compassion for those exploring paths and timing different from our own. In honoring the higher love and its guidance inside us, we are united and supported by forces much vaster than we can perceive, assisting us in pioneering changes that will serve creation and usher the earth into a new era of peace.
The next night I was with two tigers, male and female. In the dream they were slightly restless and hungry, and I was keeping them tame in a crowd of people. There were smaller domesticated cats around that I was worried the tigers would harm from their size difference, or attempt to eat because of their hunger. They needed to be fed. I awoke understanding this to be related to my passionate and creative fire; a fire that needs an outlet and stimulation to be managed and effectively handled. When we have build-ups of unsatisfied or unrecognized emotions and thoughts with no direction or healthy release, we often take them out on others. If we have little understanding of our emotions, we project them on to others or make others responsible for what we are feeling. As we increase our light quotient and potency, we also expand our impact and influence on those around us. Mastering our thoughts and emotions is key to contributing positively to our environment. As humanity continues to process all emotional residue personally and collectively, confusion and reactivity will be experienced by many. More are needed to demonstrate energetic mastery, to help channel the lower frequency emotions into higher creative inspirations and innovations that uplift all.
The depths of our experiences are rising for us to be internally fulfilled and free. Love has purpose for our unique expressions and medicine. Walk with tiger and imagine what the universe can accomplish through you!
Marching Forward in Abundance
Spring is soliciting new choices, attitudes, behaviors, and beginnings. Being relieved of many ancestral karmic debts and stories, I am learning what it is to live without a story at all. It takes a little practice getting comfortable with surrendering to whatever the moment brings, in full trust in my ability to handle it. I have been shown time after time that the higher soul aspect of myself has my best interest at heart. I am continually shown I am not alone, and reminded of the interactive and intelligent support in the life forms around me both seen and unseen, that are but a call away. Detoxing the long accrued survival and separation energies from our systems takes commitment, effort, and patience. We have convinced ourselves that we need to control the elements of our reality to stay safe, but the true work lies in mastering the influencing agents inside ourselves.
As cliched as it sounds, this is all for love, we are all in love, and we are love itself in various journeys through time sequences and emotional experiences. In a planetary cycle of ascension, we are unraveling the effects of time on our eternal state to allow a higher truth and experience in creation. This is on many levels simultaneously, because we are connected to everything, existing in a unified field containing multiple dimensions. Everything rises together, although each expression is allowed a timing and path unique to their design and purpose. Life is truly is magical, and when you set your heart on the setting of love, it shows up in various expressions around you.
New ideas and creations are awaiting expression through you. Can you trust your destiny? You have a choice in the energy you want to move forward with at this time. Old stories, beliefs, traumas, and prophecies are surfacing to be reclaimed by love, NOT to be repeated or recreated. As the frequency rises, we get more immediate returns on the energies we choose. If we hold on to fear, anger, blame, vengeance, and punitive concepts, we are not in alignment with divine love and justice, and we will reap in our realities accordingly. None of these attributes are stronger than love; they are illusions with distorted and deceptive consequences. The only effective defense and protection in addressing them is love.
March is bringing a lot of things together inside and out for our benefit. If you looked up at the night sky in the beginning of the month, you saw the planets Venus and Jupiter come together. A little later in the month, you could see Venus lined up with Uranus, and with app help you could still see Jupiter close to her in alignment. As we approach the end of the month 5 planets will line up visibly in the sky.
As above so below. Everyone will have their own personal connections and influences with these planets, but to me, with Uranus and Venus I felt a validation of the freeing of the feminine I was experiencing inside me. She had been burdened with centuries of disempowering and despairing experiences and perceptions that encouraged her to be at odds with the world. She perceived herself victim and prisoner often, the conscious use of her will and awareness of her needs buried under layers of sexual misuse/abuse, arranged and unsatisfying marriages, betrayal, bitterness, and resentment. She was encouraged to see men as her captors and perpetrators, and other women as untrustworthy competitors in the game of toxic relationships. Her identification and belief in this framework only trapped her in a cycle of shame, blame, and impotency. Emotions that were not even hers, kept her in the deep end of a tumultuous pool, never finding the tributary leading to the ocean. All of this perpetuating and creating narratives in her own life that only validated her ancestors’ experiences, and added personal layers of her own to compound them.
My wedding day, 18 years old in 1994.
The story of my feminine changed in a moment of clarifying release and transformation during the Virgo full moon. As I cried in the tub, I felt and saw myself held again by many of my ancestors. They rallied around me to help me transmute this energy for my lineages in all directions-past, present, and future. They shared their stories, their grief, and their misunderstandings. They emphasized that although these energies were imprinted and influencing me, they did not originate with me and they are not who I am. They helped me to see the ways I misperceived and mistreated my husband as a result, and showed me that the same was true for him and his mistakes from the past. I was freed from so much blocking our loving connection and truth, and felt a significant weight lifted in the way of shame and guilt. I appreciated their best efforts and ignorances as innocent attempts to navigate the patterns set before them. I gladly called forth divine assistance and agency to be the lightning in the family tree to resolve what I could to free the generations ahead.
Overcome with gratitude, I was then called to facilitate clearings at my favorite nature spots close to home. What is done in me is done in WE. I was guided to my favorite elders, and met with so much love, spaciousness, and peace. I was reminded of our natural state of abundance and assured we are always connected to it. It’s the energetic distortions blocking our perception and belief, that are in the way of us directly experiencing it. These distortions are being removed by the ascending frequencies streaming through the planet for those aware and open. We have a freedom of will to cling to impoverishing beliefs and constructs if we so choose, but all are affected by the ongoing shifts on earth. A great awakening is underway, with varying. times and processes unique to each divine expression. Love doesn’t use force or manipulation, but your soul is always helping you align to your truth and purpose.
When I sat with “Grandmother” at Fontainebleau State Park, her spirit communed with me after the clearing. She wants us to know that we are truly here to live our authentic purpose and nature. To do this, we must be more aware and selective of our energy. We must be present with who we are and what we are naturally aligned to in our reality. If we are caught up in agendas, stories, and dramas that don’t pertain to us, we are scattering our energy and weakening our potency in our own lives. It is truly not selfish to address what is ours, and to secure our highest positioning in our bodies and lives. It is our highest service! From a position of divine empowerment and embodiment, aligned to our true purpose, we are serving to elevate and assist the collective and planet of which we are a part. It is not the other way around, despite political and social agendas pulling people into conflicts, hopeless causes, and worst case scenarios that they have no ability to effectively change alone. We actually disrespect others and their innate abilities to do this for themselves when we inappropriately intervene. Our soul guidance knows and directs the work intended and set for us. We attract it according to our embodied frequency and skill set, instead of attempting to chase, fix, or make things fit. Grandmother insisted that the earth is far stronger than she is given credit for, and that our embodied love in action is a power magnificent and unstoppable. If we truly want to help change the world, we will take care of our own responsibilities and “backyards” first. Our elevated potency will inspire and attract others in likeness and ability. The light is growing and radiating in increasing numbers and waves. A giant cavern of darkness is instantly altered with the igniting of a tiny spark of flame. You can only light your spark from going within and honoring who you are in truth. Another’s path and process will not get you there. There is no escaping who we are becoming in this lifetime, so we might as well get on it now.
As I finished our exchange, I looked out to see a couple pointing at the top of the tree. I thanked Grandmother and joined them to witness the female owl that was perched above me the entire time. I had never seen her before, but one of the bystanders had a nice camera that caught her face, and her nest of babies. She was gorgeous, with intense eyes and an alerted stance. From afar she looked like a cat, and there was something in her gaze that was feline too. She was seen earlier that week fighting off two eagles by a couple camping at the park. I was honored to be blessed by her presence and her wisdom. She was not afraid or apologetic in exhibiting, protecting, and caring for what was hers, and I would see to my passions, duties, and creations in the same fashion. Owls are adept in the dark, and selective in how they hunt, nest, engage, and protect their own. We are encouraged to do the same. There are many choices and varieties here disguised as solutions that lead to bad ends. Your best path forward is knowing yourself, your worth, your truth, and the energies that support and honor that, and where you are going. You are here to fulfill your authentic divine purpose and service. In truth, that will never harm or injure another.
Plant your seeds and see to your dreams in love. Care for your body, and let its wisdom guide you in what it needs. We have ignored our needs, feelings, and instincts for far too long. This has created congestion in our systems that is undergoing a clearing and balancing. We are not meant to stockpile and stagnate in energy or possessions. As we shed old identities, ways, and narratives, our hearts will lead us to new adventures. Let yourself be excited instead of anxious. See to the care of all that’s tender so it can become strong and solid.
Let wild things have life inside and out. We can trust in the intelligence of the unseen and unknown operations of life to fulfill our heart’s desire. We are not here to figure it all out and control things with our mind’s intellect. Let yourself express what’s been bottled up in creative form or play. True innovation is stifled by desperation. We must break the barriers of possibility in frequency to to exceed the problems of limitation. Put yourself in the energy of these things instead of the old mindsets and ways that reaffirm what’s broken. Nature is full of inspiration and resiliency. Connect and be inspired, guided, supported, and simply loved.
My son was having a hard day last week until he was taken out of his personal sorrows by the beauty and majesty of the sky on a ride to soccer practice. My kids make fun of me for the numerous nature pics in my phone, especially of the sky, but he was moved to take these himself. I share them to share the good feelings. He says the first one makes him think of Stranger Things with the upside down.
Sometimes it’s because of the sorrows we are in, that we are able to fully appreciate the glory in contrast. Let yourself grieve, let yourself be moved, and let yourself own the fullness of it all in you. We are not here to deny or fight the darkness, we are here to meet and embrace it all with the true love inside us. We can only change and transform what we accept and acknowledge in ourselves. You are not asked or expected to fix the world outside you, but you are here to love and master what’s inside. This naturally ripples out to rearrange the reflection.
My sincerest wish, is that you come home to the peace and abundance you are inside yourself, and that this is shared and reflected in everyone and everything around you. We have the means to end all scarcity, deprivation, division, and deception plaguing humanity in our lifetime. It starts within. Life always finds a way…
Embracing Embodiment
Greetings from a lazy Mardis Gras in the Deep South. February has had a consistent intensity about it, that forced delays in physical progress and action at times. Surges in energy create purges in density. As spirit in matter, we are sensitive to changes in our surroundings. We perceive separation and limitation through the stored density in the body, and the fortified beliefs and structures to which we ascribe. They create foundations of perception that get rocked when the energy we are in changes; and we are in major planetary changes that are shifting everything in existence on earth.
The disrupted density contains slower, lower frequency blocks of residual emotions and thoughts from experiences that we are attached to, or are not finished fully processing. Sometimes we hold onto to distortions in thought and feeling from intense, scary, emotional, or traumatic experiences to better understand, heal, and move through them over time. We grow through experience here. We expand and elevate through our progressed experiential wisdom, and reclaim our innocence through the compassion and love we regain for ourselves as we increase our awareness and sacred remembrance. These February influxes have called forth major breakthroughs and resolutions for those energetically aware and working with their soul alignment. This phase of the earth’s evolution will require us to embody our source energy on a deeper level. We are becoming conscious creators and contributors to our reality and the unified environment we all share. This involves emotional and mental responsibility and mastery, and that requires us to address the monsters under the bed, in our bodies, and in our subconscious. We have various collective subconscious fields too that are being reoriented. Humanity has lived with many cultural and religious beliefs, narratives, and frameworks that continue to create limits and disruptions in our divine potential and connection. They aren’t wrong. They served purposes and truths at various periods of time. Many of these stories, characters, and myths changed their details to speak to and suit changes in the culture. Their teachings and meanings evolving with the ability and progress of their contemporaries. This does not lessen or negate their value, but instead shows the transitory nature and potential of creation itself. Last month I addressed the long-standing female mythical influence that permeates much of our disempowering and vilification of the feminine in Eve, but with this sacred rearranging we are experiencing now, I feel its time to move onto Medusa.
The story of Medusa has changed over the years. Medusa originally appeared outright as a monster. She was one sister in a trio of women so ugly that looking upon them caused the beholder to turn to stone. In this version she was the only mortal of the three, thus weakening her position and allowing her ultimate demise. As time passed, however, she became a beautiful mortal woman, that was a virginal devotee in the palace of Athena. Her good looks caught the attention of the god Poseidon, an enemy of Athena, that chose to rape Medusa in the palace to defile it. There are slight variations here, a few portraying her as a willing adulteress, inciting the jealousy and rage of Athena either way. In all, it is Athena that curses Medusa to her hideous, snake-headed form, and banishes her to isolation where any man that approached her would be met with the eternally hardened fate. The variation definitely creates a humbling and traumatized position for Medusa, one that reaffirms a cruel side of life and deity. Ironically, her name means “god’s protection” and her decapitated head, a symbol of protection to ward off evil. She was revered and hunted as an adversary, and then an omen of comfort and prowess in battle. This definitely touches on our glorification of conflict, domination, hardship, and suffering. She garnered no sympathy as a victim, but much admiration as a grotesque and violent adversary. She was ultimately bested by Hercules and her head continued to be powerful long after her demise.
Our evolution and harmonization as a species includes a rise, restoration, and balancing of the feminine aspect. Myths like Medusa’s say a lot about our relationship to the feminine, and what we valued as a culture at various times. Certain aspects of the female principle were celebrated, but many were exploited and denigrated, even by other women. As we make peace with these elements inside ourselves, we will see the stories and experiences change. The feminine’s beauty is neither her weakness nor her weapon, her embittered shadow state, is not what validates her. The feminine is an aspect of creation that exists inside all of us. She is the source of life, the unlimited space where all creations form, and the love that continues to nurture and foster growth and possibility. The feminine is receptive and potent in her passivity. She endures, believes, and abides. She does not need to fight, force, or manipulate to be effective. She only needs to recognize her feelings and vulnerabilities as gifts instead liabilities. She learns to value her voice even when its not the loudest, because wisdom is what lies beneath, not what’s taken or bought.
Our traumatized and wounded aspects are what cause us to grow in distorted ways over time. When hurt, we develop defense mechanisms in thought and feeling to insulate ourselves from future harm. What we build to keep ourselves safe, however, can also keep us from receiving positive energies and interactions. Walls defend against all. Our thoughts catered to seeing others as potential enemies, prevent us from connections that offer experiences to the contrary. We attract things to us based on the energy we hold and embody, so it is imperative to dissolve the past parameters to receive something new. If we allow ourselves to be isolated and fortified in our hurts, we end up like Medusa, unapproachable, emotionally weaponized, and alone. Today we better understand how she got there and may not see her as a monster, but can we recognize her in ourselves? Can we see where we have given our power to our hurts and victimization, and allowed our emotions and thoughts to run amok in our lives to our detriment? That is where we transcend our limits and our bondage to a lower expression and experience. We are meant to expand the internal barriers and challenge our older perceptions to embrace new opportunities.
Our weaknesses, blindspots, and wounds have been used to control and manipulate us for centuries. Elements of our nature have been recapitulated in perverted forms and fed back to us in ways that promote fear, guilt, and shame for things that are inherent and inescapable. This leaves us with a pervasive mistrust of ourselves and of life, ensuring we will give our power away to those that crown themselves as authority. We see what they are doing with their power, and we wait for someone better to come along to change it. This too is a learned response; one that has been re-enforced through the story of a savior coming, told for thousands of years. There are many variations in this also, the elements predating christianity. If we take the time to look at the teachings shared all over of the world, we can see shared symbols and truths that permeate all. There are things that are universal in the human experience, and they unite us when we can stop arguing over minute details and discrepancies to see the bigger picture.
If we take the two stories I have written about, there is a snake motif that is relevant in both. The snake was an ancient symbol for our life force energy. This energy is both sexual and creative; its potency soliciting physical urges and responses that were opportunities to exploit and control early on. In Eve, making her the culprit of luring a man into sin through sexual temptation (snake) helped make women the scapegoat for any desires and actions on a man’s part that lead to bad ends. It also yoked the power of women through internal feelings and beliefs about guilt and submission. It ensured she would be at odds with herself and her place in the world. She would be complicit in her weakened position. In Medusa’s situation, it was a sexual event that cursed her. If we go with the later versions, her beauty brought her danger, that then resulted in punishment. Her sexual energy was then weaponized beyond her control at the crown of her head, indiscriminately destroying everyone around her. Female sexuality has been under attack and subjugation for centuries, creating internal conflicts and distortions handed down through ancestry and culture. It is no surprise the result is the mass sexual violence and exploitation of women and children. What is inherently sacred and life giving, has been tainted, demoralized, and marketed for sale.
As the frequencies of life on the planet rise, however, all is restored to its proper place in value and creation. Life is not considered sacred when the feminine is desecrated. Respect and care is not given to those that foster life. Our treatment of the earth has best exemplified the effects of these misaligned belief systems and practices. Our relationship to each other, to life, and to the varying elements inside ourselves are changing to bring about a resolution. Our position of power always starts with our own liberation and divine restoration. The increases and influxes in light are assisting us in healing the underlying conflicts and untruths in our system. What scientists are calling solar flares, are divinely orchestrated impulses of energy flowing through our atmosphere to assist in elevating its frequency. They cause disturbances in the lower expressions to ensure their reclamation and integration into the higher frequency field of operation. This is not just an evolution of consciousness, it is a physical transformation as well. Because our sexual nature has been a source of manipulation, disempowerment, and enslavement, we will be guided to heal and resolve these issues in ourselves. We have been taught to fear and demonize the snake, but moving forward we will befriend this part of ourselves and lovingly own our pleasure, our vibrancy, and our potency. We will not see it as something to use or bargain as a means to survive, but instead see it as our precious life force to be consciously cultivated, managed, and protected for sustenance and creation in our lives. When I first started healing I was swallowed whole and regurgitated by a snake in the dream realms; last night I was in a place with many snakes of various colors and sizes, engaging with me positively as I continue to embody and heal more my sexual energy. This came after a significant heart opening and sexual healing I experienced last week.
I began my prayer ceremony initially, to pray for the transition of a young boy that killed himself because he was being bullied. He had loving and attentive parents that were devastated because he did not tell them about the mistreatment he was receiving online. As I connected to the situation and family to send angelic assistance and energy, the connection created an opening in me. I felt a crack in my heart open in resonance to the child, and then an out pouring of grief and a breakthrough in awareness ensued. I too had held secrets at a very young age, and consequently piled on years and layers of emotional and mental distortions on top of it in holding it. In an instant, I was able to perceive all it locked in place in hurt, in toxic relationship patterns, and in feelings of mistrust and unlovable-ness. As I brought a loving awareness to it, I felt the lighter energy come in. I was tingling all over. What followed was a full body re-balancing to accommodate the upgrades and align me to a higher level of soul embodiment. I processed energies relating to the secret events, along with the energies and distortions in thought that I held to protect and insulate me from it after. I saw how they isolated me from my family, and created a huge barrier in my ability to trust and open myself to others. When we wall off and guard ourselves, we live a half-life. We deny ourselves good feelings with the bad. I spent years drinking alcohol to anesthetize, socialize, and endure things; but drinking doesn’t make you emotionally available to others, it just numbs and steers you from being able to move through what is in the way. Drinking alcohol maintains a comfortably numb position in the lower bandwidth of denial.
I quit drinking years ago after my brother died and I could no longer avoid the healing and freedom presenting itself. The divine embodiment process comes with pain, but it ends with liberation. Circulating pain in denial and ignorance as a way of life is no way to truly live. The price of true freedom and love, is feeling and facing all that has been swept under the rug to discover the real self that is always present. There is the real you, witnessing, learning, engaging, creating, loving, through all time. We have been taught mistakingly to look for validation and esteem outside of ourselves, but true empowerment is an inside job. There is no escape from the changes underway. There is no thing or one coming to rescue us from ourselves and our creations. Our salvation comes from internal intimacy and engagement. The energy influxes will continue to affect our minds, our bodies, our circumstances. They are designed to, and are seeking to help not harm. Be wary of those pulling people into the dooms and dangers of man and nature. Seek your soul’s counsel above all the conflicting noise. Let everyone handle their karmic residue and responsibilities with compassion. Your position of empowerment aligns you to others embodying their own. We then unify in resonance, and grow in strength and frequency to assist the collective. This is an organic process; like water, spirit does not fight or force. LOVE already encompasses all.
Your body is a divine instrument that is always trying to detoxify negative interference and come into a state of higher operation, harmony, and balance. Do you know its guidance? There are processes it must undergo to mutate. As I readjusted my flow, frequency, and truth from my heart opening, my body was sore everywhere it was integrating. The pain in various parts of the body had messages and stories. I purged through mucous, blood, sweat, and waste elimination. I ran fever periodically. Heat is an alchemical agent. Instead of assigning an illness to my body, my higher self guided me to hold space for the transition with love and awareness. I addressed everything on the energetic level with prayer, meditation, and healing modalities like reiki and quantum harmonization. I gave my body the time, attention, and rest it needed to complete the upgrade. This is how I embrace my embodiment, understanding we are here to have and honor our physical vehicle and experience–not escape, diminish, or override it. We nurture what we see as sacred; our bodies are part of this evolution and hold the blocks, locks, and keys in the way.
What can you do to embrace and support your divine embodiment and evolution? LOVE is infiltrating and penetrating all layers to restore a higher peace, love, awareness, and unity to this planet. Will you join LOVE in upgrading the templates, narratives, and framework for all life here? Will you liberate yourself? Will you work with your body and help it to free you of the past? You will feel the new levels of bliss and potential activating and online for new creations as you move through the old. You are the only one that can do it for you! I wish you many blessings and breakthroughs as we enter easter season. You are no stranger to death and resurrection. Open yourself to the possibilities…🦋💜
Innovating Your Myth
January is almost gone, but in many ways it feels as if it started after the new moon on the 21st. We have been experiencing intense episodes of light anchoring on the planet, that create surges of lower frequency energy to be integrated. As the past rises to be processed, it often distorts the way we interpret and experience our present circumstances, and induces fatigue or purging symptoms in the body. We are clearing layers of fear, outdated beliefs, and trauma-responses from our subconscious personally, collectively, and globally. This will show up as old circumstances and issues resurfacing, that allow us to recognize the repetition and the cycle, to then shift patterns with awareness and a willingness to change our contribution and our story.
When there is a build up of many inner conflicts, repressed feelings, misunderstandings, and attachments to things misaligned with our divine purpose, we are met with life-altering experiences, loss, and changes in direction that gift us with new perception points and openings to build and rise again. This is not punishment, but an energetic balancing and guidance system that keeps us on track. We are here with soul support and service that we can consciously connect to for assistance in our journey. The Earth is in a realignment phase too, clearing her decks to secure a new foundation of creation that honors her star origin and birthright. She has held the weight of all bloody pursuits, appetites, and damages on her soil, but she will experience freedom, structural changes, and restoration. Much was created and depleted on earth without consideration of a harmonious balance. Life explored all directions in form as part of descending and ascending cycles of energy in time. In the descending age, the inherent innocence and love of creation was forgotten, creating many hardships and conflicts. As we ascend, innocence is being reclaimed and restored via wisdom through experience. Those that have traversed their own darkness, carry the light that is inextinguishable and available to all in their darkest night. Lightbearers have been incarnated many times in dark ages, and held the torch of truth to light the way for others as they face their own exploration of shadow. Truth has taken many shapes in various cultures to help people relate and understand their own reflection and connection to life. As we move into a new age, there are variations needed to address where we are now. Outdated stories, with limited and literal applications, will not speak to what is possible in a higher frequency field of existence.
These upgrades are part of forging new templates of experience that honor the ascending direction of creation. During centuries of dominating patriarchal preferences and mindsets, certain archetypes and narratives were formed and repeatedly donned. `They vary a little according to the place and time, but collective agreements were set as to what is a man, a woman, a hero, a leader, a saint, a martyr, a teacher, a guru, and so on. New energies call for new roles, and new stories, templates, and possibilities are in the birthing canal now. With the acceleration of accessible ideas, communication, and information, the landscape and language has drastically changed. In response, fear has risen as a companion to uncertainty while we dangle on a new edge. We must remember we are not separate from life, from creation, or from innovation. We are designed for the ride we are taking, equipped to change and adapt as part of our nature. We have held onto patterns and structures out of sync with our evolution, and as they die or face reform, so must antiquated ideas, modes, and models.
Are our stories and shared inspirations elevating us and speaking to our higher nature? Do they call better qualities forward, or remind us of our lower standards and appetites? Ancient people understood their connection to life and death, and the symbolic nature of physical expression. Everything is a manifestation of the sacred; beliefs, words, and gestures hold power, and should be appropriated consciously and reverently. Everything has an energy signature in creation. Selectivity is not about censorship or judgment as much as it is about right use of power and creational responsibility. If we look at the majority of content expressed on the internet or in our entertainment networks, are we surprised at the rise in violence, lack of empathy, exaggerated sexuality, consumerism, and depression experienced in large segments of the population?
It is obvious our artistic and spiritual cultures have changed. How we accept information and consider its influence in our lives has too. Most are taking in large amounts of data and stimuli unchallenged regularly. Technology is streaming frequencies, ideas, and scripts ongoing. Most people choose information platforms that are in agreement with their own perceptions and experiences. This helps them feel secure and validated, even when they are encouraged to be at odds with an “other.” Belonging to one side and rallying against an “other” helps us to feel right/validated, included, and special. If there are deficits from childhood in such feelings, this is especially appealing and hard to resist. Because we are conditional beings, our early experiences, impressions, longings, and wounds will determine where we fall in the group category. Our preferences in “parties” are more unconsciously patterned than we would like to think. We inherit and are hardwired with many concepts and attitudes that don’t originate with us. These preferences feel natural but it is because we are imprinted with energy formatively and carry predispositions in thought and feeling that we justify and cater our intake to ongoing to stabilize ourselves. These limited aspects of our nature are like blindspots, allowing us to be overly confident and rigid in our positions, while being manipulated in a large way.
Consider that television, film, and social media, having access to large groups of people, is a successful tool in entraining them to certain ideologies and ideas about life. People unknowingly contribute their energy to co-create movements, industries, and the agenda’s of others, even when–ESPECIALLY when they furiously attack it. Reactively opposing something is still accepting and validating it as truth on some level. Many people built empires from the fear, hatred, and objection of others historically. Fear is an energy that feeds a certain kind of being, and bad press is still far-reaching and lucrative press to many.
Is this the energy we want to continue feeding and moving forward with? We see the results in the world, and we maintain them with our refusal to take personal inventory and responsibility for our choices. Maintaining concepts like “savior,” delays personal accountability and action that is necessary to turn the tide. “Loving thy neighbor as thyself” was not an edict meant for a special few. It was not simply a moral commandment, but the truth of the energetic reality that we live in. As more progress is made in navigating the quantum field, we will increasingly accept and understand oneness as the underlying truth of our existence. We will recognize our ability to attract according to our energy signature, and accept our part when we receive reflections we dislike. We will truly experience the result of our words and gestures, and learn to be empowered by this responsibility instead of afraid. When we see something we don’t like in the mirror, we will wield compassion and forgiveness understanding the true wages of judgment and war.
We are being called to consider the collective myths, archetypes, and stereotypes that we are contributing to, and to address our own mythology on a personal level. Are we repeating roles that lead to destructive and degenerative ends, or are we becoming vessels of change and potential? Are we speaking love and hope into our future? Are we demonstrating joy, passion, and a reverence for life? Are we teaching our children inclusivity, consideration, reciprocity, and kindness toward all forms? Do we realize our children grow and express themselves according to the standards and efforts we’ve set and met in love? Children do not grow up in a vacuum, they will always show their parents, their culture, their society, and their country what they are being inflicted and imprinted with in their behavior. We must move on from the idea of a few “bad apples” and recognize our frustrated efforts, our unhealed pain, our unexpressed truths, and our perceived failures in them. Everything is a manifestation and reflection of the energy it holds, and things don’t evolve accidentally. We have spent much time in denial, but we won’t change what we refuse to acknowledge. All suppressed energy on Earth is being addressed in a planetary ascension cycle.
As I recalled bad apple, it brought to mind the proverbial apple that is responsible for many distortions in thought and belief today. If we go back to a primary creation myth illustrating our fall in consciousness, we can see how women were cast to be “justifiably” mistreated and mistrusted in Eve leading Adam into temptation in the garden. There were variations of this story, but the suppression and subdual of women and the feminine principle of creation, resulted with effects long-lasting. The apple symbolized duality and the experience of life divided. Church doctrine further emphasized that certain types of knowledge and its pursuit were dangerous and damnable. This of course allowed them to be the authority on what was appropriate, creating an imbalance in power that is very much active today in most systems of authority. Flesh/matter was deemed sinful, splitting individuals against themselves. What remains fundamentally severed in belief, is then unwilling and afraid to seek restitution in the whole. It is so consumed with its own wickedness or that of “others,” that it fails to take into account the abuses of power at the earthly helm. If one takes the time to consider the contradictions in many belief systems and their enforcers, it easily falls apart. However, early imprinting tied to threat and persecution ensured a hardwired fear and refusal to question such matters was handed down ancestrally and physically. Mandating literal and historical interpretations of ancient texts, coupled with punitive enforcement dimmed the larger population from appreciating and experiencing allegorical wisdom and ecstatic mystery. Spirit was cleaved, compartmentalized, and magic removed from the mundane. We are still musing over an apple thousands of years ago, and missing the giant Apple that is pulling everyone into a manufactured playground of solicitation and propagation.
Technology, like knowledge is not good or evil. It is the application of it that creates effects and results with karmic residue and influence. I find it interesting that the largest and wealthiest tech company in the world is named Apple. Although Apple has brought many innovations, conveniences, and expansions, it has come with a heavy price–comforts and advancements that rest on the backs of the slavery and suffering of those mining and assembling its parts. This only ensures that progress remains tainted and serving a divisive, avaricious, and downgrading agenda. Disempowerment and subservience are disguised as progressive and heroic in the new corporate ideology. In a unified field of reality, we can no longer deny what is connecting to and through us in the palm of our hands. Every man and woman is responsible for their realm. There is no excuse for ignorance, no escape from the energetic ramifications. We are held to our creations and their resounding repercussions. We must all learn to wield our power with wisdom, compassion, and integrity in consideration of the whole and world of which we are an integral part. We can re-write and re-purpose our tools, symbols, and stories to elevate and integrate all those devalued and dismissed in segregation and exploitation. Their suffering is the foundational core of the industries they bear, and it’s time we stop compromising what is priceless in life. The apple is ready to be reclaimed and recognized as a source of sweet love and nourishment. Stories and symbols have always helped us make sense and meaning of realities that were hard to accept and endure, but what if we reconstruct them to inspire and advance our highest nature and potential instead? We know where we’ve been, it’s time we become what is needed to get where we want to go.
We will have to be willing to let go of all we relied on before in fear, familiarity, and comfort, realizing they are prisons of perception and experience that keep us small and devoid of our destiny. We must also be patient. Addressing these larger issues in the world takes time. We waste energy and circumvent the problem in attacking and blaming others; we are not here to fix or save others from their karmic responsibilities and destinies. We can utilize our gifts and time to address what is presenting inside ourselves and in our immediate realm of influence. We can embody what love is calling for us to express. This is our greatest gift to life and all in it. If we don’t know who we are, and if we aren’t connected and empowered from the inside, we can’t conceive of our own legend or brand in service to life and its higher design. Everything in the way exists inside us. It is in facing our fears and activating our true love in their stead that propels us into our best position possible. Old myths called for slaying dragons and demons, but in the higher frequencies we are now in, I have found that what we fight we resist and empower, allowing it to remain in our story. My greatest triumphs have come from applying love and forgiveness to my shadows, which led to their dissolution and disempowerment entirely. Any shadows that remained lost their effectiveness to manipulate and influence, once I accepted them and acknowledged them as retired parts of me that came online to protect, serve, or defend me in some way. As we own and dismantle these energies in ourselves, and commit to new pathways of experience and behavior, we will see our efforts reflected in the world around us. As I write this today, I feel new voices and opportunities rising inside awaiting their expression in form. I am with them in the dreamtime too, learning, planting, and aligning. I know it is not something to be rushed, but savored. We will have the steps appear as we are ready. Aquarius has landed with an endless field of possibility, if you haven’t already, take the time to consider a new pathway that is opening before you. I would love to hear about what is coming alive and attainable in creation through you. 💞
A New Year, A New You in Divine Assurance
Whether our external circumstances reflect it right now or not, we have come a long way. We have all been in a karmic rendering and balancing. This is a necessary process in creation, one of a transmutation of energy that allows us to shift into and embody a higher frequency potential. There are misconceptions about karma being a function of celestial reward and punishment, but it is merely the byproduct of our creations, choices, and actions that allow us to experience, know, and grow through ourselves in form. We are now being called to remember our true nature in the higher realms. We are each individualized expressions of the one love energizing all life. Our greatest power lies in the recognition and restoration of this wisdom. It allows us to embody more of our creative ability and influence. When we align with the supreme force of the universe, our innovative potential and capacity are strengthened and amplified. In order to restore this powerful response-ability, however, we must tame and reclaim our lower identities, and master the proper use of life force. When we truly see that everything has an energy signature and effect, we will better select, manage, and regulate our thoughts, emotions, and choices, knowing they all create and influence outcomes and manifestations in reality.
Divine templates of creation have been successfully restored and secured on earth for the next phase of evolution. We continue to receive influxes and increases in divine codes, frequencies, and physical upgrades with the earth to facilitate the shift. Ascension is not only an elevation in consciousness, it is also physical transfiguration. This is a natural organic experience that causes physical symptoms in the body. The old way of perceiving mutation in the body, sees these changes as periods of illness that imply nature or our genetics harmed and damaged us in ways that are condemning and sometimes irreversible. An industry has been corrupted to manage and profit off of illness, encouraging a mindset of dependency and disempowerment in health. In truth, our body is a divine technology reflecting and expressing the result of our energetic, creative, and karmic repository for this incarnation. Our bodies are intelligent, each cell and system a network of vast wisdom, vitality, and tireless operations relating and harmonizing us in the world. Our bodies hold the density of our experiences that we are still working through, and what we often see as illness is part of a messaging and balancing system that informs, protects, and helps us process what is ready to be understood, acknowledged, or transformed allowing for a new awareness and experience. We are spirit expressing through matter. Everything in life is sacred, is spiritual, and an opportunity to expand. We have mistakingly believed we were separate from source, and then taught to compartmentalize our spirituality to be localized in a building, on a Sunday, or only in the presence of a deemed enlightened or endowed leader. In truth we are our own saviors, capable and responsible for our connection and restoration to the one will and love underlying all. Everything we do matters and is representative of who we are in love or illusion.
Love is reclaiming all in creation on earth that strayed in misperception. As divine children we were granted freedom to grow and create according to our various desires. We were allowed to explore distortions in belief. We were allowed to experience love in its contradictions and absence. We created prisons for ourselves, and a karmic residue of emotional suffering that we are addressing in this shift. We are now collectively in a time of great awakening and remembering.
Around the middle of December leading up to the winter solstice, I started anchoring the frequencies of 2023. I was hit with a new sense of elation, celebration, and possibility. I felt myself energized with clarity, soaring high through my day. I felt I could climb a building or Mt Everest effortlessly. I was filled with a freedom and confidence indescribable, and overcome with a knowing that all is truly well, our highest trajectory and alignment secured. I am calling 2023 the year of “Divine Assurance.” This assurance will rise through the self, via our restored connection to source-as-self. We will come to believe in our validity, trust ourselves, and express ourselves with a new authenticity and authority that dispels illusion and distraction with more ease. We will know our power lies within ourselves and our maintenance of high frequency stability in the face of physical expressions rearranging and changing. We will increasingly experience our influence in our realities, and focus less on the things that are not ours to interfere with or assist. We will better identify and understand the fragmentation and manipulation of our energy, and extract ourselves from the situations and beliefs of disempowerment and delusion. We will see more of our inner work and changes bear fruit in form.
Assurance comes with patience. It comes from knowing our strengths, our abilities, and our dependability through many trials and circumstances. We learn and gain trust in the midst of challenges. We see who shows up, who can be counted on, who remains. We perceive our own measures of courage and integrity. Any discrepancies, energy blocks, and obstacles can only be addressed when we step to them. We are not ascending our reality by escaping it. Every thought, feeling, belief, expression, and misaligned/misperceived/misunderstood energy must be processed and integrated into the higher truth. Lower frequency expressions are reclaimed and restored into the higher whole, and as a higher frequency set point is reached, higher aspects of self are accessible and available. We are only perceiving and experiencing separation from the blocks and distortions we are holding and maintaining in density and belief. These energies are processed over time, in a course set for us by our soul. We are intimately involved in every aspect of our life and experience; we are creating it, while being overseen and supported by our higher soul aspects in living it. When we begin to see everything as a manifestation of love, and everything in our reality as a reflection of love or its wayward distortions inside us, we will recognize ourselves as the true terrain of transformation and possibility in our lives.
Assurance comes from grounding into our bodies, our lives, and into the earth. It is our loving presence that restores form. Bringing unconditional love, the light and force of the universe, to every aspect of our body and life is what transforms it. We restore feeling and awareness in our bodies through love, helping them become the divine vessels of intuition and magical creation intended. We are not meant to live in our minds. We are here to have a divinely embodied experience. Our disconnected minds operate through fear, familiarity, and old programming. As we bring more light into our body and system we awaken senses that enable us to better discern the energies we encounter and engage. We can feel truth, feel love, and alternatively we can feel deception and any attempts made to manipulate, deplete, or misuse our energy. To honor our proper course in life, it is paramount that we connect to our soul guidance to navigate us in the days ahead. As the outdated manifestations in form destabilize and destruct, and as emissaries of greed and separation attempt to elude and distract others to hold onto their positions of power in the old reality, a deeper stability in source-as-self is vital. What you focus on, believe in, and energize in time, money, and attention, you are helping create and maintain in your reality. What you speak, relate, and choose is an act of creative responsibility and influence. Your life is your creation, to be lived lovingly, passionately, curiously, authentically, unapologetically. In 2023, divine assurance is owning it.
Once our lives are owned and loved, once we are able to love and forgive ourselves and others unconditionally in recognition our true identity in love, we are able to detach personally from the lower frequency distortions, patterns, and programs that surface. We are able observe and address them as they pertain to us, and leave others to their divine process and ability in resolving their own. We allow ourselves to feel everything with love, compassion, and acceptance. We know feelings and thoughts are transitory in nature. They are fuel and inspiration in experience and creation. They can be explored and manipulated, adopted and discarded at will. We are the field of love that they move through, and they provide a framework and foundation that we grow and create through. Whatever our lives were up until now, is gone except in the way it imprinted us in thought and feeling. To move to a new frequency bandwidth of creation and experience, we are processing all held in residue that is in the way. Living with divine assurance, is knowing and trusting that this is part of an organic process intrinsic to our nature. 2023 calls for faith and commitment to our divine guidance, vision, and connection above all else. We are not carrying separation forward, but honoring the spirit in all things and delighting in our ability to demonstrate what’s possible in love.
Where are you being called to remember more of your identity in love? Where are you ready to release old stories and attachments that have kept you confined, ashamed, and disempowered? Are you writing your own story and determining your path forward from your inner guidance, or are you still co-creating according to someone else’s narrative, outdated beliefs, or societal pressures? What would it be like to live without a story at all? To meet people exactly where they are now, without preconceived ideas rooted in gossip, without assumptions or defenses, without blame or needing anything from them? Can you meet and love yourself exactly where you are, knowing your timing and process is perfect for you? We are pressuring ourselves from ideas about where we should or could be, most often from thoughts and feelings imprinted in us that have nothing to do with who we are becoming authentically in this lifetime. These are being surrendered into your higher truth for your true nature in love to emerge. In the beginning we are afraid of this love. We have spent centuries convinced otherwise, and at times were persecuted and punished for expressing it. Give yourself a gentle space to let the fears unravel knowing love is at the core.
2023 will help us recognize our magic. We live with miracles and magic ongoing in even the most basic functions of life that we take for granted. Our eyes were dulled when our minds were yoked and programmed with fear. Our sight and perception is a matter of belief and perspective; if you believe you are in a world of limitation and sin, you will interpret and experience it accordingly. We were living with these blinders in the third dimensional earth, interpreting our reality through a past rooted in fear, trauma, and survival. Many thought systems were created out of this mind set, and all old earth systems functioned from these perversions and limitations. Love is the higher operating system and energy of creation and our world. What we experience as unloving conditions and situations indicate where truth is hidden and distorted. We were all born into these dense distortions. Some us knew truth but silenced ourselves when we saw it pummeled and disregarded in the world. It is time to stand for truth. Forgive those who cannot see yet, those that attack you cannot see beyond their pain narrative or feel you. They may not remember now, but they will soon enough. Take heart and let your changes and efforts be enough. People can only communicate from where they are in their own understanding, and can only see and love you to the extent they offer it to themselves.
2023 is about knowing your truth, honoring your wisdom for your path forward, and not giving your power away to someone because they are a so-called expert. Open your hearts, open your minds, and open to your highest possibilities for yourself in the new year. The earth has a higher frequency bandwidth available for you to get there. Our progress in understanding the quantum field and nature of reality, will help us validate scientifically, what we know is true in our hearts spiritually. We are bridging the gap of many polarities at this time, seeing a unified harmony and whole that does not need to enforce absolute truths through division and contradictions. Everything has added to the beauty and richness of life. Embrace the paradoxical nature and mystery of life and of yourself. Let yourself be. Let yourself love. Let yourself be new.
Wishing you a peaceful, joyous, and prosperous new year rooted in divine assurance!🤩💞🎉
The GRACE Reset
Sound the trumpets! We are out of Scorpio season. 👻😝 I am not prone to dramatizing things, but we have definitely been in a chrysalis of chaos at times. Scorpio brings us to our emotional edges, depths, and shadows. It reminds us of the forces of death and transformation that are necessary functions of life. As the leaves change color and prepare their descent, we enter a darkening period ourselves. If we can sit with ourselves and recognize our own haunts, and their corresponding reflections playing out around us, we are better able to manage the ride.
We have been seeing, processing, and integrating all energies that are in the way of us embodying our highest truth and inherent worth. As we continue to anchor the higher frequency light codes and energies inundating the planet, we reclaim and restore the higher aspects of ourselves. New earth creation is about divine flow and alignment. We learn to honor and prioritize our inner reality, knowing that it is our energy configuration within that determines and influences the physical circumstances in our external. As higher expressions of ourselves become available to our operating system, the lower identities and illusions that are contrary or obsolete are absorbed. I witnessed this in great detail in a dream facilitating a changing of the guard. To close out this karmic cycle, I was advised on the feminine relationships and functions that are not appropriate for the next phase. Closing the relationships was only one part; the most imperative was seeing and retiring the role I play in the dynamic. I am the creator of my story after all.
To start, I was brought to actively witness a feminine aspect of myself in relationship in vivid detail. She was very sweet and loving, but withheld a lot personally, often to the point of detriment. I was shown that the imbalances for her in relationship, due to over accommodation, people pleasing, and peace-keeping, were mutually destructive to both sides. I felt her loving intent, but saw its aim was mostly outward, failing to include herself. I recognized that the unbalanced giving and focus, came from a distortion and deficit inside her that drew the unhealthy “takers” as an energetic by-product. I understood why the relationships were not valued or appreciated properly, and why it actually harmed the “takers” that seemingly benefitted, because in truth they were not able to grow or experience themselves arriving at their own result. Neither side got ahead, felt truly loved or seen, or was able to shift the dynamic.
The old female aspect was perceived as weak, but allowed herself to be used knowingly to mediate peaceful outcomes. She did this often because she saw the bigger picture and sacrificed personal gain and truth for a group harmony. She learned this early in life, and came to only rely on herself. I was brought to a battleground clearing and saw this female dressed and weaponized in armor to defend her position in charge. I waited in trepidation because I knew this was a last stand. She wanted me there to watch, to witness, and to honor her in my life. I obliged her with a pit in my stomach knowing the end before the beginning. I really KNEW her, and remembered her many efforts and encounters. I was grateful for the time she served. With a little remorse, I looked to the other side of the clearing and watched her contestant arrive, younger, bolder, and slightly colder. As I took the newcomer in, I noticed she was as wise as her predecessor, but less pliable. She met me with a gaze that let me know she was firm in who she was and that she had boundaries. She did not need to be liked, but she would be respected in the way she respected others. There was also a vast love in her, but one tempered with discernment. She was not there to be a doormat. She was there to be valued along with her time and effort. She was generous, but not interested in stepping into any situation that was not for her, no matter how dire. She saw imbalances in exchanges as disrespect to each’s divine ability and process. She was committed and determined to honor her divine guidance above all.
I immediately understood how and why this aspect of myself was coming in. It was a natural outcome of the work I had done to embrace my truth in the light. I watched with sadness the battle that ensued. There was a part of me that did not need a fight at all, but my older, softer aspect wanted it. She knew she was retiring home, and she wanted to make a statement of her own worth since she had often given it away. The battle was long and bloody. I cried as I watched it but I could not turn away. My older self really put up a fight! I could not help but admire her, and if I’d had any doubts about her strength before, they completely dissipated in that dramatic display. I think that was the point. She helped me appraise and acknowledge all that I had accomplished with her. It didn’t matter what anyone else thought or took from the encounters, I KNEW better. I grew and held important wisdoms and sentiments as a result, despite any lack of physical or traditional evidence of “success.” They battled in a ring, on a cliff, and in water. Both faces bloodied and set with determination and respect for each other. When it ended, both cried and held each other tight for my older aspect to be placed at a pyre of recognition. As my new feminine operating principle took her place, all that was before in spirit and wisdom, was included and incorporated into her crown of authority. I woke feeling more complete in myself, and at peace with what it took to get here.
We are transforming ongoing in response to the changing energies and circumstances on earth and in the universe. This month saw an eclipse cycle, and in ancient times eclipses were harbingers of great changes and resets in life. The stars and planets align in various ways that help us experience shifts and expansion. Stars and planets grow and go through changes too. We are part of their cosmic dance, influencing, reflecting, and affecting each other in love and wonder ongoing. If we are attentive and mindful of our connections to the natural forces of creation, many shifts occur in our awareness to help guide us further on our paths of destiny. When we are unconscious of our divine connection and guidance, we are sometimes steered physically in extreme ways. This is not to punish, but to clear the decks of any misaligned and karmic debris that has accrued over time. We are never left here without divine connection, guidance, purpose, options, or potential. We are being freed from our inner prisons crafted with illusion and stagnation in thought and emotion.
Even though much in the world appears to be contrary to divine will at this time, all creation is subject to the principles of divine law, order, and timing. What is out of divine in alignment and service to the true nature of reality is being purged, processed, and integrated into a higher frequency bandwidth of LOVE. This is happening on multiple levels and layers of ourselves, the collective fields we are in, the earth, the universe, and so on. November held a space for us to shed old beliefs and identities in thought, to reach new personal depths emotionally from clearing attachments and residue from old experiences, and to receive guidance on a core wound influencing us in the way we value and express ourselves.
The message of a suppressed wound in me surfaced around Thanksgiving via poor communication and connection with parts of my family. A brief encounter, allowed me to observe my body respond stressfully, despite my mental neutrality. I was able to clear the older energy that was not appropriate for now, and address the underlying thoughts and beliefs tied to old perceptions of abandonment and rejection. I had a series of dreams through out the week to show me past events and dynamics that were being processed. I continue to work with my self lovingly and patiently, recognizing how long this energy has been in my system, how many unhealthy experiences I had with other people based on these settings, and how much it impacted the way I felt and treated myself as a result.for many years.
New insights lead to new choices, new commitments, new actions, and new habits. Old misperceptions were formed and imprinted over time, therefore the shifts and any corresponding beneficial results will bloom and be reinforced the same way. We address things cyclically in layers, in a timing that is optimal and unique to us.
Overall, I have spent this holiday in so much gratitude for all that is awakening and returning to me. It is a relief to know we need only go within to find our best path forward. It was exhausting to attempt to manage and control reality through external means. Thanksgiving helped me get to the basics. It helped me fortify my foundation with truth and love that honors where I am NOW. The simplest truths are the most powerful, and they are all verified in the heart. As I continually choose to release attachments to all expectations, people, circumstances, and beliefs that create confusion, dissension, or diminishment in me, I am left with peace. I am filled with a knowing that there is so much more beyond our parameters of perception. I am affirmed that there is nothing to fear, that this unknown is a part of us too. I am reassured that everything we are seeking or thinking we are “going”to, is already here. I release the attachments to what any of this looks like, needs to be, or what I think I should be doing. Another dream showed me I am already “there,” and that the new earth is a vibrational reality we are being, maintaining, and creating from inside. I can let the past go, and release the contraptions of the mind. I am most effective when I simply let myself live from my authentic state of being. We spend so much time searching, comparing, and striving that we often forget to seek our own counsel, satisfaction, and direction. We bury our joy under masks and obligations, and are often the first to betray ourselves. As things slow down into darkness, explore and celebrate yourself with the same enthusiasm you bring to whatever it is that you cherish in the world. You are also many layers, wonders, adventures, and possibilities existing in many dimensions of reality. Embrace all that grace is resetting in your life, your psyche, your relationships, and your path.
I hope winter arrives finding you curious, soulful yet playful, loose in your grasp, and light in your heart. 💜 🦋
Managing Multidimensionality
October has been a wild ride! 👻 As we continue to be entrained into the higher frequency rhythms of the earth, we are integrating mental and emotional constructs faster than we are often consciously aware. Our minds can actually get in the way of the process if we try to figure everything out. Our bodies are intelligent vehicles of divine technology that are designed to adapt and transform in life. There are times where surrender, trust, and rest are vital ingredients in the path forward. Our bodies need time to adjust to the shifts occurring inside and out. There are processes that the body utilizes to purge and transmute energy. We often mistake them for symptoms of illness, but they are assisting us in an evolutionary mutation.
One of the highlights of my October was traveling to Overland Kansas and Kansas City, Missouri. While there I visited a farmstead and came upon an enchanted forest. I thought this was symbolic of the journey we are all taking into shadow for the rest of the year. Ready or not, regardless of whether one recognizes the road, we have all been thrust forward.
In an enchanted forest all is not as it seems. What brightly shines can contain the spark of false light; what is promised can wither when attained. Eyes that are drawn to dazzle or are weary from fear, can be easily mislead. Here it is the weight and wisdom of the heart that knows the way. If the heart is contracted in fear, it will also contract in progress. But if the heart is open to feeling, accepting, and acknowledging what is truly present, it will remember what is real and trustworthy on the path home. In an enchanted forest, it is possible to see what lies in the shadows. When one knows deception is a part of the landscape, one can finally engage in the pursuit of truth. It takes a willingness to be wrong, to be responsible, to be capable, to be pliable. The structures of the path can flip and be obstructed in a moment’s time, and require us to create and move forward in a completely new fashion. Knowing yourself and your heart’s truth is your most precious commodity to get through. All that glitters, and gathers in numbers is not gold. Choose wisely, and know the tree for the fruit it bears.
We are awakening to our multidimensional nature in the higher frequencies. As we embrace and integrate our shadow aspects, we shift the denser energies in our bodies. As veils of perception dissolve, we expand our view and light quotient in the body. We become more aware of our various consciousness states and incarnations in other realities. We experience ourselves more influential in our external reality. Life responds to our thoughts and expressions with increased immediacy and accuracy. As we become cognizant of all of the functions, existences, and aspects we are running simultaneously, it encourages us to be more mindful of the energies we consume or entertain. Everything in life connects, affects, and reflects. We realize that managing multidimensionality is actually maintained more through embodiment than the mind.
In truth, everything has an energy signature. Thoughts are creative and frequential in nature. To help illustrate our creative complexity, I received a tutorial from my snail in my aquarium. I had this tank for years, but while I was in the publishing process of my book, my snail spontaneously began giving birth to multiple babies.
I watched in curiosity and awe. Nothing had changed in the tank, but as I was in my creative process working on my manuscript and marketing texts, the creative spark struck my snail. There were so many! I began perceiving the connection, and was shown that we are always creating. Every creation that we set forth has a life span, purpose, and process of its own timing. When we focus too much on forcing or controlling an outcome with one of our creations, we actually limit it and ourselves in capacity and potential. The nature of creation and life is abundance. Not all creations are viable or meant to last past a certain function. Some are helping us grow more than what they will bring to others. As I watched the tank explode in population, I also saw it cleaned and managed more sufficiently. All of the babies contributed to that result, so one was not more important than the other. I let go of worrying about having to fix any part of it, because I realized we are functioning in many aspects of reality the same way.
What has become increasingly most important in managing creation and multidimensionality is FLOW. Being in alignment with divine flow and rhythm is key. From a state of surrendering mental projections and expectations, one can simply relax into the body, the heart, and life itself. There is a knowing inside that is not rooted in the mind. We are actually existing inside an energy field of our higher nature, and continuously guided and assisted on our journey. The body knows what is exciting, alarming, or exhausting. The heart knows what is joyful and warming, or what causes restriction and dread. As we slow down and ground into the heart and body to acknowledge the wisdom in our divine design, we connect to a flow that carries us to the experiences in line with our path. From a state of flow, we attract what we need, as a perfect match for what we are becoming. We don’t have to chase or force, or try to fit or fix what we think we are supposed to have. In truth we are always attracting, creating, experiencing, and expressing what is perfect for us in each moment. We are shown when adjustments and choices are necessary for growth. We are led instinctively through our own shadows to expand in our capacity to embody our light.
Winter is coming. America is revealing and healing what has been suppressed and distorted in the dark of her underbelly. All of her children have an opportunity to honor the principles of freedom, and the ideals of the pursuit of happiness, imagined in her conception. We are in a phase of foundational reconstruction. We can no longer shirk integrity and responsibility by turning a blind eye, closed heart, or ignorant mind to the obvious fallings and criminal actions that have become synonymous with the word politician. New foundations call for new leadership. Solutions won’t come from the pools of polarity and familiarity.
America is being reborn. She is rising from the ashes of the old systems with wings fortified by the visions and sentiments in our hearts. We are either creating and birthing something that moves us all forward, or we are clinging to illusions from the past and taking poisoned candy from strangers in the enchanted forest. What was, is no more. What was, can never be. Life itself supports freedom and expansion. The earth and America are universally supported in their restoration and elevation in the higher frequencies of their divine blueprint.
Life finds a way to bloom, to succeed, to reclaim what is lost. Have faith in its ability to respond with innovation and fortitude. You are connected to these qualities and abilities yourself. There’s nothing in life that is foreign or separate from you. Know that what ever surfaces in the enchanted forest, is something that you are ready to acknowledge and dispel with your heart’s light. Your heart knows the truth and the way. Take care of your heart and don’t let fear compromise your discernment. LOVE is always the answer and the space to hold yourself in while you go through these changes. Love is more than a feeling or philosophy, it’s a high-level frequency that uplifts, unites, absolves, and transforms all.
Want to hear about my adventures in the enchanted forest? I share some in my new book, True Love Not Like in The Movies. You can purchase it through this site, or on Amazon and B&N in a digital format. I would love to hear from you about any time you spent in the proverbial dark forest. Leave a comment and let’s start a conversation;)
A September To Remember
September brought challenges, deep insights, and transitions for those committed to their process. Breakdowns led to breakthroughs when approached with acceptance and a willingness to remain open. Some breakdowns seemed simply mechanical and a test of adaptability and willingness to surrender. I had to repair my new dryer for the third time in 2 months, and was back at the laundry-mat with bags of clothes. Despite the inconvenience and costliness of these events, I experienced myself able to deal with these frustrations easily. I had encounters with people while there, that let me know my trips were more than about clean clothes. When things don’t go as planned, it is important we trust the way we are re-routed. If I have learned anything this month, it is that we are meant to let go of things easier. Our attachments and expectations in people and circumstances, are often barriers and limitations to what is beneficently possible. When we can trust our process, allowing for starts and stops to be necessary aspects, we can come into our highest alignment more harmoniously.
Another challenging breakdown for me, involved this website. For the last 3 weeks I have been unable to enter as an author or visitor from any of my home devices. I asked for help, but intuitively knew the block truly existed inside me. I was also denied the ability to download my last video to the land on my YouTube channel after hours spent attempting it the way I had accomplished it previously. It was time again to surrender to the forces at play, and to explore what was inside me blocking my channels of expression.
What came up for acknowledgment and emotional processing, was early wounding and suppressed energies and beliefs related to being unloved and devalued. These energies were definitely older that this lifetime, and at the core of many relationship misunderstandings and traumas. This started in an argument I had with my husband. It was a resurgence of an old pattern between us, and as it occurred I was able to see that he was locked into a loop of seeing it a certain way, based on his sense of abandonment and lack of love. There was real pain there and I could not disrupt it with explaining my position. I too experienced a loop that I held. I observed myself, experiencing so much pain from not being understood, not feeling loved, and not feeling that my words mattered. There was an aching for connection paired with a belief I could never have what I wanted based on years of my perceptions and experiences in relationships. I was able to see how my sensitivity and defensive posture literally pushed people away, and was interpreted as coldness and meanness.
In the peak of awareness and intensity, I removed myself and went to make a formal surrender. I sat in a room crying out, and felt the depths of sorrow and frustration pour through me. I closed my eyes, and that’s when I saw and felt a line of ancestors behind me. With the my grandmother’s hand on my shoulder I wailed. She too had a woman behind her holding her, and this pattern went on as far as my mind’s eye could see. With their heads down, they witnessed in solemnity, offering me support. I could feel their recognition and gratitude, and I was inundated with their scenarios and troubles holding this line. It was then I realized I was here to break it. After allowing it to run its course, I thanked them and spoke my intentions to shift the patterns for our lineage in all directions. Once calm I went back to my husband, and held space for him to vent. Once he felt heard, I placed my hand lovingly on his head and allowed touch and surrender to do its magic. We both fell silent, and fell asleep holding each other. Before I drifted, I called in the energy clearings and intentions for the next phase of my experience.
When we woke, we both had more clarity. We were able to see our loops and apologized for our parts. I explained to him my time with the ancestors and saw the light dawn in him. As hard as it was, we put away our hurts and chose to surrender to love. We moved through this with a mastery we were unable to achieve prior. I was actually so proud of us, and knew we sent a ripple freeing many in congested lines of suffering and sorrow. We shifted a well trodden path of human disfunction, and our children will relate with greater ease and understanding. About an hour after I woke, my body felt this shift physicalized with a new lightness and peace that spread throughout. I dissolved the lower frequency pattern and energy into a higher frequency set point, and embodied more of my light. What we are actually experiencing is the result of energy mechanics, shifts, and management. While in a denser physical reality, we can’t perceive all the processes at play. So much happens at a speed and level that our minds and eyes can’t perceive or comprehend. Again, we do much better when we learn to let go. Let go of needing to know, control, or figure things out. We are part of an intelligent network of operation that supports and responds to what we need and are aligned to do at any given moment. Trust in the power to transform and shift any state! Energy is always in motion, and change is guaranteed.
In addition to this generational clearing, I was then led to surrender relationships that were not in alignment with who I am now. Surrendering does not mean there is no love for the person/s in question, it means that despite the love I feel, I have to choose and honor myself by surrounding myself with those capable of reciprocating love in return. When people grow in different directions, they are not meant to keep each other from their chosen paths. We are meant to connect to the things in alignment with us, and to disconnect with them when they are no longer a fit. Sometimes people can’t see or relate to each other because of distortions from their own wounding. We can let go with love and forgiveness, without guilt or shame. Everyone is responsible for their own path. Leaving these situations helped me to clear energy I held for these people that wasn’t mine. It helped me to release judgments and projections about myself that are not true. It helped me to feel the suppressed pain of loss, abandonment, sorrow, and betrayal from past encounters. It helped me to acknowledge the anger and unexpressed words left hanging in my throat and head, without hurtfully unloading them on another. I held a space for myself to heal, and decided the energies I wanted to create and relate from in the future. As I processed these burdens to allow them to integrate, there were tokens of love every step of the way. I had hearts at my feet, in my litter boxes, in a tiny leaf that fell from a book, in my dog’s rear end, and on and on…🤣
Love was there holding me, encouraging me, and reminding me of its presence in ALL circumstances. As I followed my guidance and committed to clearing and shifting my energy through the hardest times, I was met with a new opportunity for growth. Old doors of experience, identity, and limitation closed, and new perceptions and an inner expansiveness arrived. The space you make inside yourself and your life from clearing out what no longer serves you, is what allows you to take on a new higher ground of operation. We are releasing the denser aspects accrued from our past and inherited from previous generations, and embodying more of our soul’s light. The light doesn’t need to attach or hold onto the past. The light knows the power is in the present. As I maintained my effort and met my challenges as LOVE, I was rewarded with the match in frequency. This is the nature of the energy mechanics earlier referenced. We receive according to the energy that we embody or give. It is why changing yourself, changes what you attract, changes your life. It doesn’t have to be chased down in the external reality. Once I shifted the energies and beliefs in the way, I received a personal call from the IT manager on my site and the matter was resolved within minutes. I had been in communications for weeks online, with many unsuccessful attempts and efforts. It was effortlessly handled once the energy INSIDE me was transformed.
This transformation is ongoing. We are continuously called to remember our true nature, to believe in ourselves, and to actualize what we know as our higher path. This requires trust in the unknown at times, and confronting our fear. Our fear takes many shapes and forms inside and out. Sometimes they are the warning thoughts that haunt us, sometimes they are the nightmares from previous traumatic events, and sometimes they are the criticisms and judgments spoken to us through people in the outer reality. When you begin to realize that everything is a reflection of some aspect of you, you can approach and perceive encounters less offensively, to observe and discern what is ready to be addressed inside. This is the way to empower yourself in a mirror reality, to becoming more effective in what you set out to experience or accomplish. Everything has a unique sense of timing. Trust you will engage with things as you are ready. We are meant to have periods of rest and celebration too.
September has encouraged me to challenge the ways I diminish and silence my needs and accomplishments. There are deeper core beliefs and patterns I am still unraveling. I am learning to talk about myself, and put myself out there more. Every part of the publishing and marketing process has forced me to confront and transform blocks inside me. Each step gets easier, if I stay with the task at hand and allow myself to enjoy the moment offered. Each step gets me further up the hill. I just have to remember to take breaks and turn around to take stock of where I am in regards to where I started. Our work and passions are meant to be pleasurable. This was the main message communicated to me during my equinox celebration at Fontainebleau State Park. Life is a celebration of creation! As I made offerings to the various life forms there, I was reminded of our kinship and the need to unite in joyful endeavors.
September also brought showers that looked like flowers, and flooding that ensures water will uproot the earth’s suppressed densities. As above so below. The Earth is in her transformative process too.
We are all in the process of discarding our old shells, and learning to function with a new sensitivity and vulnerability that encourages healthy boundaries over heart walls and sharp edges. We are stepping into a new frequency terrain, where who we are inside, and who we choose to BE, carries far more weight than who we were sired from and what we stand to gain financially as a result. Knowing and honoring your true self, and acting in alignment with this truth in spite of the many forms of fear surfacing, is your best foot forward coming into October. When your mind is filled with doubt, let your heart lead the way.
Believe in your goodness, inspire it in others, and let LOVE handle the rest. Honor the times your body and heart need restoration. LOVE will not leave you behind. You are LOVE!
I would love to hear about your September! I am still working out a few kinks in the technology, but at least now the energy is letting me try. I invite you to join the conversation on my blog, and to check out my story in True Love Not Like in the Movies. I go deeper into my times in the mirror there. Happy Fall! 🐛🦋🦃🍁🌾
